Disappointed...

I have to say that I was a bit disappointed with myself for not mustering up the courage to bogard the set today.  Yes, I did  make it out there, and I did walk around and through the set, but I didn't pull anyone aside to talk to them, or start picking up stuff or anything that would potentially help on the job front (or my comfort zone.)

But...I did email a friend of my professor who works on the show, (as I had done last year about this time with no response) and this time I did get a response.  She said there are others she's trying to get employed that are 'in the line ahead of me,' but once I got bumped up to the top of the list, she would do everything she could for me.  We'll see.  I was happy at least not to be ignored again.

I also got an email from my gig on Master Chef with a few details (with more to come in the following days) about the shoot, which helped me focus on more positive things.   I researched the producers on the show to see to whom I should attach myself to possibly help in a transition into scripted TV, but none of the producers have worked on anything but reality TV.   I will still be the best PA I can and  make connections and have an open mind to what God has in store for me there.

My tutee convinced me to meet with her today, and while it wasn't our regular day to meet and I didn't particularly feel like going, I did and it kept my mind occupied for a few hours.

Now it's about 3:38am...and because of my (probably overly exaggerated) disappointment with myself and lack of courage, I decided to work on writing/developing the next project on my personal docket.  I feel better and productive...and right now I'm just taking a break.

A text from an East coast friend wishing me a blessed day was a nice surprise...though it was even more of a surprise for her to get a response from me.  I'm sure she was hoping it would be a nice morning surprise for me.  We texted a little bit, and she's probably right; I should be sleeping...but when I feel like working, I gotta do it.  In a little bit, I won't be able to pull all nighters...well not for a few months anyway, so I gotta get while the gettins' good.

Break done...back to work.